委屈

cha·grin

SHəˈgrin/

noun

noun: chagrin

1. 1.

   distress or embarrassment at having failed or been humiliated.

   "Jeff, much to his chagrin, wasn't invited"

   synonyms:

   annoyance, irritation, vexation, exasperation, displeasure,dissatisfaction, discontent; More

   antonyms:

   delight

verb

past participle: chagrined; verb: chagrin; 3rd person present: chagrins; gerund or present participle: chagrinning; past tense: chagrinned; past participle: chagrinned

1. 1.

   feel distressed or humiliated.

   "he was chagrined when his friend poured scorn on him"

Origin

mid 17th century (in the sense ‘melancholy’): from French chagrin (noun), literally ‘rough skin, shagreen,’ chagriner (verb), of unknown origin.

New Slang

I haven't updated my blog for a while.. I guess it's because I've been trying really hard not to do anything. I know, it sounds stupid "trying hard not to do anything" but it's true. Having been working all the time on a schedule, I never feel comfortable when I have free time. I'm always thinking about my work for the rest of the week, and how I can work ahead if I spend the time working instead of doing nothing. If I do it now, I will get a real weekend on the weekend. But the cycle happens again on the weekend, and I never give myself a break. My stress has caused the H.pylori infection that I have been suffering with for the past two weeks. It absolutely sucks. Not only does it drain out all your energy, physically and mentally; it also makes me feel nauseated every time I eat.
I am tired, so tired.
My mind won't stop spinning. I wish everything could stop and slow down. At night, I'm in bed and I try to recount the events that had happened the day. I struggle to put things in chronological order. Everything is moving too fast. I'm using up all my energy to stay afloat, but I'm scared that I'm going to eventually exhaust and drown. Then I close my eyes, even though I know so darn well that I'm going to wake up, and I'll do it all again.

"Don't worry" "You'll get better soon" "Don't stress too much" "One more month"
......

Tired

And it's only been the first of week. 

Addicted

It's not drugs... it's worse. 

It's netflix. 

The last time I was hooked on a TV show was when How I Met Your Mother was still good (and that was a longggg time ago). I've been watching Switched at Birth (the title is pretty self-explanatory), and I can't stop. 

Symptoms of addiction: 

1. When I'm with my friends, I would rather be in my room watching the show 

2. I didn't do any of my homework during study because I was watching the show the entire time

3. Thinking about skipping class because I would rather be in my bed watching the show 

S.O.S

-sharon

Sunday Night Moods

Summer 

New favorite 

Doing last minute vocabulary definitions for English 

On replay for the past half an hour

3/4 more sundays to go and i'll be home 

-sharon

Post-match pms

1. just got my period today, yes. the day which i have a tennis match, the day when i am playing #1 singles on the thirds tennis team.
2. played against a co-ed team, and by co-ed i mean 1 girl and 8 guys.
3. the "co-ed" team was the only tennis team their school has
4. i played against a varsity-level guy
5. he never announced the score and kept losing track of it
6. we almost got into a fight
7. i took panadol for cramps so my legs wouldn't run as fast as they usually did
8. it was a good game
9. i played well and i gained more experience
10 but i still don't think it's fair to play against him
11. girls tennis and guys tennis work very differently
12. end of my numbered story
13. off to bed

Damn. I miss you.

Those summer nights where I stayed up all night listening to you play your guitar and singing to me,

Has it been.. three years? And till this day no one has made me feel the way you made me feel, 

...I don't know, but I really miss you....hbd.

-shharon